It's a Monday

Today has definitely been a Monday.  You know....not just a day of the week, but THAT day of the week.

I've been somewhat transparent in the past but I must admit with complete transparency that I have found myself in one of my most vulnerable positions that I can remember just because of those around me.  It's not an uncommon thing to hit rough patches in a spiritual realm.  When we allow life to run ahead, make decisions for us, dictate what we do, God and His plans can be put on the sidelines by us....the very ones that they were created to help.  But nowadays when my spiritual walk hits a rough patch, it doesn't just effect me.  It effects this guy that I'm married to and share a home with as well as two little (almost) one year olds who call me Momma.  It's not like when I was in my early years in college and I felt like I was stumbling through life looking for a way to find me.  Nope, now I suffer from it as well as others because as my husband likes to say, "we are not physical beings having a temporary spiritual experience.  We are spiritual beings having a temporary physical experience."  And while I don't always like it when he reminds me of that, I can't deny the truth of it.  So at this point, I'm pretty much stripping my soul bare and allowing God to do some serious soul scrubbing with His Word and the help of some honest truth from the ladies over at She Reads Truth.

I wasn't planning on posting this publicly but I realize that I'm not the only one that feels this way today and I also realize that today may not have been the greatest Monday for a few others out there too.  And another thing, isolation is like rot to the soul.  I am so much more likely to sit in a corner, light a flickering candle and call it a healing process instead of seeking out others to come along side me and share the process, the soul scrubbing, and the growth that God completely wants to give.

So as I walk this bumpy trail, I hope you'll come along.  If not I'll have Jesus keeping me company but I am a firm believer in "the more the merrier".

So to kick this off, here are my first three vulnerable truths for today:

• I have been raised in church my entire life, listened to the stories in Sunday school, graduated from youth group and became a sponsor myself, led others in a salvation prayer, and still at this moment in time, I feel a gap between me and the Lord.  I think sometimes it's us "seasoned" believers who have always had God just right there, and we often allow Him to slip away instead of intentionally working and feeding that relationship.
• That gap isn't exclusive to my relationship with God.  No sirree....it reaches into marriage, family, friendships, ministry, all areas of life.  It's not joke nor anything to take lightly.
• I am stripping my history with the Lord bare and starting from the beginning.  I'm making zero assumptions and going to Him with palms open and heart hungry, believing that He is faithful to fill hungry hearts and thirsty souls.

So here's to crummy Mondays but hopeful Tuesdays, second days, honest, intentional soul scrubbings, and road trips with the Lord through His Word.  Anyone wanna come along?